trying to exhale

it seems like my life is slowing become a routine; a routine that involves nothing but unthoughtful work and hours that my body really doesn't agree with. i've been talking about it for a while, but it's still on my mind, which is why i continue to bring it to the light (no need to let the candle burn out if you can still see the light). i think that there's a solution to everything that i'm worried about right now; not worried in a sense that these complications are driving me crazy, but worried in a positive way that will ultimately help me make it down the yellow brick road without clicking my shoes or reciting those famous lines that dorothy said three times in the wizard of oz. and i'm thinking the decision that's to come will make me happy again, make me smile and bring some type of excitement back into my life. all of my friends are in my hometown or somewhere around that area, and being that i'm only 22 (for roughly two more weeks) i sometimes long to get out and enjoy myself. all work and no play...(you know the rest) i'm praying on it and i've thought of a method that will help make this decision one that will work for me instead of the other way around. the spirits are working in my favor right now. let's hope it stays that way. yeah. let's hope it stays that way.

one love.
gkg

tonight

tonight
if you looked directly into my eyes
you'd probably begin to cry
because you'd see
the pain
and hurt
and agony
and disappointment
and an overwhelming
feeling of failure
that just won't evaporate
even after the sun
has shone brightly in
a beautiful blue sky
and dried up all the rain.

tonigh
if you looked directly into my eyes
you'd put your arms around me
and squeeze me tight
because there's a good chance
that you might
see the struggles
and heart ache
and deception
and confusion
and an overwhelming
feeling of nothingness-
a beautiful wallet that's empty,
a sea with no fish,
young brothers without a father
but an older brother
that wants to set an example
so he cries behind closed doors
and smiles at the world
because he's afraid to show
any signs of "weakness"

tonight
if you looked directly into my eyes
you'd see the tears fall
and wipe them away
because you'd see
the perseverance
and resilience
and determination
and dedication
and an overwhelming
feeling of pressure
because of high goals
that HAVE to be achieved
because of high goals
that have been set for me
and even though i still have faith
and in my goals i'll always believe
tonight it's become too much
so i close my eyes
and escape into a pleasant dream.

L.O.V.E
g

translations pt. 1

i wrote this LONG post about english and language and all that blah but decided to erase the entire thing because it was a bit on the serious note and serious wasn't quite was i was going for. i have, in turn, decided to post some translations for you. we use these terms everyday without even thinking twice. some of them may have come from the englishear, which for some reason is still a work in progress but at any rate...

What it is?
How are you doing?

SHIIITTTT, i'on even not know homeboy
I have no idea about that situation.

Bitch Stop!
Fuck you!

Boy/Girl Stop!
You're silly.

...and that's real talk right there.
I'm serious about this matter.

Hell Motherfu*kin' naw!
That's unbelievable.

I know you shittin' me!
You're lying.

Bring yo' ass!
Come here right now!

You got me fu*ked up
You obviously have me mistaken for someone else.

You so damn triflin'
You have a bad sense of character.

Wrench them off in that sank before you leave
Wash the dishes before you go.

This don't make no damn sense
Gas is way too high.
(LOL- this one can be used in many situations)

Ay shawty let me holla at you right quick for a minute
Excuse me young lady, it would be my pleasure to make your acquaintance.

Fu*k you then!
I wasn't interested in the first place.
Usually used after the young lady ignores the young man trying to "make her acquaintance".

My stomach is tap-dancing on my liver (nikki)
I'm hungry.

It's about to go down this weekend!
We're going to have a good time at the party this weekend.

Wussup kinfolk?
How are you?
Usually used at family gatherings

i have more but i'm tired so the must be continued at a later date...

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