tonight

tonight
if you looked directly into my eyes
you'd probably begin to cry
because you'd see
the pain
and hurt
and agony
and disappointment
and an overwhelming
feeling of failure
that just won't evaporate
even after the sun
has shone brightly in
a beautiful blue sky
and dried up all the rain.

tonigh
if you looked directly into my eyes
you'd put your arms around me
and squeeze me tight
because there's a good chance
that you might
see the struggles
and heart ache
and deception
and confusion
and an overwhelming
feeling of nothingness-
a beautiful wallet that's empty,
a sea with no fish,
young brothers without a father
but an older brother
that wants to set an example
so he cries behind closed doors
and smiles at the world
because he's afraid to show
any signs of "weakness"

tonight
if you looked directly into my eyes
you'd see the tears fall
and wipe them away
because you'd see
the perseverance
and resilience
and determination
and dedication
and an overwhelming
feeling of pressure
because of high goals
that HAVE to be achieved
because of high goals
that have been set for me
and even though i still have faith
and in my goals i'll always believe
tonight it's become too much
so i close my eyes
and escape into a pleasant dream.

L.O.V.E
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