can't let go

i'm loving my life, and even though it seems like i never have a chance to stop and enjoy the air that i breathe, i honestly have to thank god for all that he's given me thus far. professionally, i'm on top of all the barriers that were put in front of me, looking down on all the obstacles that i once faced and thinking, "how the hell did i ever get here?" but the battle never ends. my sword is starting to get dull and sharpening it is never an easy task. that's where my friends come in. i want to take out time to apologize to everyone that's ever had my back. i know it seems like i've fell off the face of the earth, but in reality i'm fighting with it. my schedule is undescribeable...i won't even attempt to tell you everything, but i can't give anything up because i want it all.

everybody is depending on me to do all the things that i said i would. there's so much support behind me that i can't help but to give it all that i've got. i'm loving life...i really am. and although i know things won't always be this way, i do appreciate the moment and everything that is around me. i can't let go...and the love that continues to run through my veins rubs off on everyone around me. god has put me in such a good situation. i thank him. so much love. so much love.
peace and blessings,
gkg

big things poppin'...

...and little things stoppin' because i'm looking to defeat so many challenges that are set up for me. i decided to post back on Diary because it's been a while since my bus stopped here. i actually have another location that i've been releasing my thoughts, but i won't plug it here because it wasn't created to be something that was widespread.

pieces of my life's journey have been unraveled since the last time i posted here. there is the new teaching job that has brought about a combination of emotions that i had no idea existed. right now i'm anxious, nervous, excited, sentimental, creative, and a combination of other emotions that i can't think of at the current time. teaching was one of my dreams the could've possibly been deferred but somehow it re-appeared and came to the forefront. i have a lot on my plate and there's so much responsibility that i'm taking on. i won't give up though and i'll make sure to achieve all possible goals.

i haven't talked to many of my friends lately because of the hectic schedule and that doesn't make me happy at all. my friends keep me grounded and let me know when my head is getting too big, and lord knows i don't need this thing to grow anymore.

being that i've changed jobs, there's a possibility that there could be some monetary problems in the making but i'm dealing with those problems as they come along and trying to take care of the situation before it gets out of hand. along with the new job came a new car and a new car note and a new grad school and new grad school tuition and certification classes and certification class tuition...you get my drift? but god has really been good to me and he's making sure that all of my dreams are being brought to reality. i'm just praying that i can live up to the standard that have been set for me.

my wedding was moved back a couple of weeks so that i can get situated, get out of school, enjoy this very expensive wedding with the large wedding party, and most of all max and relax over in the virgin islands. i'm excited and so is my family. there are so many people who will be living out their dreams through this wedding and i'm almost 100% positive that they won't be disappointed. the only thing that will be left after that is the housing plans, and i think i'm looking to reside in this area. the a-town has treated me nicely and i can't turn my back on her now...

one.
gkg